#compulsive exercise

[brightandblossom]

I got super sick this week! I am 90 percent sure it is covid as I feel very weak and fatigued. Along with all the classic cold/flu symptoms.

However one thing I've noticed is it's been difficult on my exercise compulsion. It just shows that no matter how recovered I think I am, I need to be vigilant. I have canceled my running and other social walking activities this week. It feels uncomfortable but I know my body needs to rest.

[troglobite]

fatphobia & hereditary heart disease fears will have me warning my dr that being sleep deprived and inactive lately bc of health stuff will surely have raised my blood pressure

then she takes it and it's fucking 110/70, literally perfect.

[musical-chick-13]

:) :) :)

[butchshevik]

I do actually think there is something really really interesting about (thoughtful) fanfiction and the particular itch it scratches both emotionally and narratively that seems like it may be getting discounted as the pendulum of online opinion swings away from it as a form but I almost don't know how to describe it without sounding like an Apologist which I very much am not

[registeredsinnertm]

Got inspired by the song "Everybody's Better Than Me" and my outfit, so tada! Fun Fact: This was mostly a therapy exercise for my body dysmorphia LMAO- Took months to finish since it kept making it worse but I completed it! 🥳

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[equalperson]

sometimes I believe that My tendency to avoid telling My family when I'm having health issues is just the result of avoidant cognitive distortions, but then I actually do it, get told that it's "normal" and/or a lifestyle issue, and realize the real cognitive distortion was expecting help at all -_-

[crayonurchin]

So yesterday marked what I think might be a new chapter of self healing and growth in me, and with my inner child.

You hear it a lot- 'heal your inner child', and tbh I always just thought it was a nice sentiment about accepting hurt in your past.

Yesterday, I had a very severe mental health episode with my OCD, and I realised I couldn't handle it, and had to have an emergency session with my therapist. She guided me though the panic attack and helped me untangle the web of intrusive thoughts that had me trapped in a loop. I'm so fortunate to have such a brilliant longterm pyschotherapist working with me.

Anyway. She used a mixture of emotional guidance and science to finally show to me how the inner child is behaving when you're in a crisis. That kid is panicking, they're doing anything they can to survive, they're using the skills they had to learn to stay alive when they were being hurt.

And then there's you. The adult. You're also there, but, you're still letting this child look after you. And that is not fair to that poor little kid. They should never have had to suffer, struggle and survive the way they did.

Well, you're an adult now. For better or for worse, that kid is yours. And your job is to protect them. Validate them. Let them know that you will personally never let them be hurt the way they were again.

I was a victim of online grooming from ages 10-19. I was forcibly shown sexual content, made to be peoples therapists, forced to stay awake for literal DAYS just so a grown adult could have a power play with me. And the child in me adapted to make sure that never happened to her again.

And it won't. Because I will take care of her. She doesn't have to fight anymore, an adult is going to look after her.

My OCD is severe, but it is not impossible for me to thrive. All my intrusive thoughts and feelings are valid, my mistakes are okay, my worries aren't evil and my condition will not rule me. I accept it. I thank it for showing me I still have work to do. And I love my inner child, exactly as she is, trauma and all. We're gonna enjoy the little things she loved, and my job is to look after us both.

Yesterday I felt like a failure for reaching out for help. Today, I want to give yesterdays me a big kiss on the forehead and thank her. I'm nowhere in the clear but I'm ready to keep pushing on.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[readymades2002]

"You know," I mused idly, my eyes wandering. "I think this is actually the fourth glass ceiling I've run into today." "Mm, it's true that you don't see a lot of women working in Aetheromancy," Kam said, partially distracted in an attempt to cram the last of her many bags, which hadn't fit into the cage, under her seat. "It's an institutional concern, I think. The educational culture is very masculine, lots of bravado--" "That's not what I meant," I said, my brow flat. "I mean literally. There was the carriage me and Ran took, the ceiling they've had at the auditorium since they rebuilt it, the entrance hall, and now this." I pointed upwards. "Well, I guess in this context it's different, but..." "Oh," Kamrusepa said, sounding a bit put off. "That's disappointing. I was looking forward to arguing about politics." "It's probably just a coincidence," Ran said, turning a page of her book. "Well, I don't know if I'd say that. The feature is something of a Ysaran post-revolutionary stylistic flair, I suppose," Kam said, before delivering a final blow that was at last able to awkwardly lodge the bag in place. "Open and optimistic, but cautious and conservative at the same time. It lets in a lot of light, without running the risk of prosognostic events you get from a regular window in a public place." "I suppose that's true," I said. "You never see it in the Dai League, though." "Mm, well, every culture is different," she said, finally settling into her seat. "They socialized distinction treatment, so I suppose there have been less drive for such gestures of compromise--"

god flower's setting is so fun. i know i mentioned narrative economy earlier but there are so many things there just to flesh out the world a bit. it isn't efficient but it's sure as hell interesting. i hadn't processed the detail of the dai league socializing distinction treatment before, THAT'S cool

[butchlifeguard]

having kids would be great for me personally bc if im ever in a place to get pregnant ive gotten over The Issues

[buttercupblu]

Satoru's Psyche|Teaser

"Now…would you say that human nature led me to this? Or am I a product of the cards I've been dealt?"

🗂️Patient File: Patient Gojo has been admitted to a specialized psychiatric hospital following a compulsive massacre and assault on the city of Shibuya|Causes/triggers that led to the patient’s mental decline and subsequent carnage in Shibuya are currently speculative; however, they are suspected to be linked to a prolonged period of confinement within a cube-like structure. Information regarding the mechanics of this structure and the patient’s history remain undisclosed to the ward and the public.  🩺Job Description: You are the only nurse in Tokyo—specifically assigned by an unknown secret society related to the patient—who is able to manage and care for patient Gojo. His violent and erratic behavior has left multitudes of staff members in shambles and disarray as he quickly disposed of them one after another. But for reasons unknown—a complete mystery to yourself as well—you have somehow managed to cross Gojo's barriers and earn his approval to be his one and only caretaker. Your duties include: daily routine patient care, observation and monitoring, therapy, adherence to protocol, and thorough documentation to be directly reported to the Director at the end of every shift. Be wary: Patient Gojo exhibits characteristics consistent with an extensive history of manipulation, obsessive behavior, and charismatic engagement. The patient's ability to charm and manipulate requires that staff be particularly cautious about their own psychological well-being. Exercise heightened emotional regulation and remain professional at all times to ensure that personal feelings do not affect judgment or quality of patient care. 📋Length of Admission (w.c): 10 unpredictable intervals 💊Intake Chart (tags): Patient is prone to: sporadic fits of violence; manipulation; flirtatious conduct, verbiage, and assault; over-obsessive tendencies; fluctuating attachment styles, narcissistic dialogue, and an insatiable compulsive urge to [REDACTED]. 🏥Orientation: August 14, 2024 [OUT NOW]

doctor's angel's note: - Check the acknowledgment box (like) - Forward your copy (reblog) to accept this position. - Sign below (comment) to subscribe to the patient's weekly updates (tag list). S/O: @blkkizzat for the teaser inspo|Check out their teaser of the juicy, delectable Yakuza!Toji x Reader story that I cannot wait to get my hands on, The Nursery

[mikeyswishes]

ana is atrocious my daily steps now need to be at least 20k

[musical-chick-13]

Six-ish Sentence Sunday

Apparently—annoyingly—one of the few things that’s truly universal across all times, all places, all species, is the experience of taking some sort of absolutely nonsensical action without knowing why. Somehow, he’d thought himself immune to this phenomenon, but. Well, River is involved. Honestly, he should have known better. It’s an otherwise calm, unremarkable afternoon. The TARDIS needs a few minor, surface-level repairs, and she could probably do with an update, so he’s sat under the glass floor with River, working to rewire a circuit panel. He had, a mere half-hour ago, insisted that it was not a two-person job. (He was wrong.)

[becomingthatgirl111]

Definitive Guide to Stop Checking Your Phone Compulsively

1. Set Specific Check-in Times – Limit phone checks to designated times, like after a relaxing activity or during breaks.

2. Keep Your Mind Busy – Engage in activities like reading, exercising, listening to music, or creative hobbies.

3. Practice Mindfulness & Breathing – When tempted, take deep breaths and remind yourself of your well-being goals.

4. Remember Your Purpose – Stay focused on your inner peace and personal growth.

5. Redefine Your Focus – Visualize how you want your day to end—calm and fulfilling.

6. Find Alternative Activities – Replace phone-checking with reading, journaling, or relaxing exercises.

7. Create “Phone-Free Zones” – Avoid your phone during meals, walks, or before bedtime to be more present.

8. Use Reminders & Affirmations – Place visible notes or phone reminders like “I choose peace over uncertainty.”

9. Take a Mental Pause – If overthinking, focus on your breath or something positive to regain clarity.

[transmutationisms]

Was in a discussion with someone about 'porn/sex addiction', and they (basically) argued that compulsive behavior that causes harm to someone's life should be categorized under an 'addiction' framework, using 'gambling addiction' as an example. Idk, it seems kind of impossible to me to divorce any application of the term 'addiction' from both the social&material context surrounding it, and the one around porn is radically different than the one around gambling. I left the conversation feeling like 'gambling addiction' must be bullshit as well, and I am wondering your thoughts on the concept

atp i don't find addiction a useful concept in general (i've talked some more about this in this tag but might try to write some kind of more clear précis in a fresh post sometimes) for basically the same reason you cite -- it's an essentially psychological concept oriented around the notion of a lack/loss of willpower, with therefore a very poor engagement with (slash wilful elision of) the material-economic-social factors contextualising the described patterns of behaviour. for example gambling addiction is a very useful concept to the gambling industry, which can then continue to prey largely on people desperate for quick cash by spinning tales about a small subset of the population simply having personal brain problems requiring them to exercise special personal responsibility and implying nothing broadly unsavoury about the basic appeal of the activity.

i also agree it's plainly absurd to lump together completely disparate actions (watching porn, gambling, getting high, &c) under this schema of compulsive action as though the experience of loss of control is transcendentally a disease irrespective of the specificities of the actions themselves. but even if we tried limiting this concept, say even just to substance use, i still don't find it fundamentally useful (physical dependence is obviously a real thing that can happen, but is neither synonymous with nor always present in what's referred to as drug addiction) and in fact i think it's incredibly detrimental to people's ability to use substances safely and in ways that integrate into other aspects we value in our lives. and the facile pop-neurobio framework into which the addiction concept is constantly being pushed is applicable to literally any activity (petting a cat gives me a dopamine rush, oh my god, better sit alone in a cave in a hairshirt and starve myself, except now i got a dopamine rush from how self righteous i get to be about it... fuck!!!)

[backfliips]

As someone who admittedly has attention issues of my own, I think it's important to talk about how attention is a skill that can be learned and often requires conscious and focused effort to build. I think a lot of people despair over the current state of media --- short-form algorithm-driven content that is built to snare and lure and diminish people's attention spans for profit --- and while that despair is certainly built off of legitimate concerns, I want to stress that the damage being done is not irreversible.

Over the course of the COVID-19 lockdowns I fried my brain so intensely with tik toks and instagram reels that I was getting bored 2 seconds into a 5 second video and was finding myself scrolling so quickly that I wasn't even watching anymore. I was lethargic and unhappy and though my mood was definitely simultaneously impacted by the hovering doom of COVID-19 and living in complete isolation for months at a time (I don't recommend that, BTW), I found myself losing passion for the things I loved doing: drawing, reading, and writing. I felt miserable and useless and incredibly guilty for leaving my productive and fulfilling hobbies behind while I chased... not even happiness. Just something to occupy my brain and turn it into mush.

As time passed I realized that I wasn't even having fun on tik tok anymore. I'd see funny videos and get a rush of endorphins, and then the next second I would have completely forgotten what I just watched. I was refreshing social media pages to see numbers I didn't even care about. Everything was an endless loop of swapping between different apps, just time passing and passing and my attention span dipping lower and lower until I would go for days without feeling any sense of joy or accomplishment.

And this was most definitely aided by the fact that I was unemployed and stuck in a terrible worldwide epidemic, but as soon as I deleted the tik tok app and put harsh time limits on instagram (15 minutes a day, which I rationed compulsively) I suddenly wanted to draw again. I started reading books again. I started writing and spending time outside and getting inspiration from the world around me.

Now, years later, I work with teenagers whose lives are dictated by their phones. My coworkers often lament the state of the world today --- which, again, is a valid stance to have --- but in the few months after my workplace implemented a no phones policy, I watched disengaged students bounce back to productivity. Instead of scrolling during lectures they paid attention and asked questions and engaged their peers in conversation. During lunch they played board games and talked to each other. Students even told me about how they didn't even want to go on their phones when they got home from school!

It isn't perfect, and I'm not advocating for a world devoid of phones, but I just want to highlight that these neural pathways can be built and exercised. People's brains are resilient and fascinating and much stronger and more adaptable than many people are willing to give them credit for.

I've expanded my time limits across more apps on my phone, setting days where I can't even access social media at all from my phone, and in that short period of time I've found myself far more engaged with the world around me. I've been zipping my phone up in a bag instead of keeping it in my pocket, adding a step to access it, and I've found that that alone is keeping me from using it to a huge degree. I'll toss my phone across the room when I find myself on it when I don't have any reason to be scrolling. And it's helping!

My main message here is that it's never too late to focus on your focus. Change and improvement doesn't happen until you make an effort on your own.